Nor forsake you.

I'm not going to beat around the bush, lately life has been a struggle. In just about every sense. I feel weighed down and discouraged in so many ways. I don't think there is anyone who knows all the things that are happening with me, that in itself is rough. The feeling of loneliness..

From worrying/repeated trips to the doctor for infected bug bites to not feeling sufficient or successful and everything in between.. my range of struggles hit just about every area. Waking up I feel overwhelmed. Thinking of returning to the States in a little over 2 months fills me half way with extreme excitement and halfway with extreme sadness which causes my mind to boil over all the time. I could go on and on about things that are bothering me or hurting me or frustrating me or ways I'm falling short but what's the good in that?

OKAY, this doesn't continue being depressing!
God is really, really, really teaching me things.
Seems He always does that in our trials!
I find it super easy to say "God is in control" or "He has His plan" or "I just have to trust in Him". But what I'm learning right now is to TRULY trust in him. The Bible says He works all things together for the good of those who trust him. So honestly I am truly trusting...
Trusting that God has put me in every situation for a reason.
Trusting that He makes beauty from my mistakes and my pain.
Trusting that God will heal broken relationships.
Trusting that God has a perfect plan for my life.
Trusting that His love is unending, far beyond my understanding.

"Consider it pure joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have it's perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing." James 1:3-4
Thank you Jesus, for never leaving me alone. Thank for always testing me so that I might lack nothing and become more like you. Thank you for these difficult moments, give me the endurance and trust I long for. Pase lo que pase, I TRUST YOU. 

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you!!!